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Wednesday, August 26, 2009

I'm feeling dreadful once again.
feeling emo once again.
feeling unwanted once again.

My day started unhappily once again.
something insignificant happen ytd.
wat insignificant things?
juz coz my bro & i drank soft drinks ytd.
de moment my mom reaches hm from work,
the nagging and scolding began.
i knew she care fer us,
i knew is all fer our own good.
but in de end?
as usual,
i'm the one she blame.
i'm the one to her, started everything.
as usual, her personal insult to me began.
juz me..

why?
why me again?
what have i done wrong again?
i really cant use words to explain how am i feeling now.
even thought i keep teling myself juz ignore.
but i start feeling the hurt all over again.

since young,
many things keep happening to me,
no matter was it my fault or not.
i'm oways de one,
ended up getting cane & scolding from her.

but why?
why is this things happening on me?
do you know how much i love you?
even doh i know you dote my brother more.
but why?
do you know that since young i keep thinking of the possible reason/things that i've done,
thats why you treat me dis way?
and i've been wondering why somethings happen?
is it coz i'm stupid?
i cant gib u better result?
i cant make u feel proud thats y?
but no matter how much i try to prove to you,
its all useless...

you will nv love me the way u love my brother.
everytime you cane me, you slap me or scold me
i keep telling myself nv cry.
coz i don wan to show you the weakness to me.
but each time you do tat,
you've stab me in my heart.
& all i left for you now,
is nth but hatred.
& this hatred juz keep growing as i grow up each day.
coz i realise that you've abandon me once.

I HATE YOU, MOTHER--

i tried so hard,
trying to tok things out wid you.
but u nv give me a chance to.
each time i tried & the way you treat me,
only hurt me more.
so i've given up.
given up on you.

coz of you,
i've long lock myself up.
coz of you,
i've change..
i can no longer be who i use to be anymore..
i cant be that happy-go-lucky girl anymore.

all i wan now.
is to be alone..

Imagined at 6:12 pm

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