Monday, December 03, 2007
tink lots of ppl are facing some pro wid their frens.
needless to say,
i'm one of them.
i oways used to envy ppl who hab lots of frens,
but now i don.
even if u hab lots of frens ard euu,
how many and who are real to euu?
who truly understands euu?
you may say i'm oways tinking negatively.
yes, i admit i am.
coz i hab experiences lots of stuff,
n now, i don believe in it anymore.
since pri sch, perhpas i cum frm a girls sch.
girls are childish. yea
they hab lots of stuff like i fren u, don fren euu. watever.
i was wid a clique of 4 girls including me.
we oways hab conflict and we will sure leave 1 person out & say is her fault.
but theres ones, everyone dislike T say say she oways bitch behind ppl.
i too agree wid them coz she also bitch abt me.
but seeing her alone i shld b happy.
but i'm not.
u can say i'm very emotional or sensative or maybe tink too much.
coz i can juz feel how she is feeling, i can put myself in her shoes.
i can feel tat she sad & lonely. of coz being de sensative me,
i feel sad & lonely fer her too.
all i wan is to b there fer her.
but in de end. ha.
she betray me. and i still didn realise it.
i call her phone, she had second line which was another girl J
she know is me, she ans and immediately switch to J
imagine how i feel after habing her do dis to me?
dis is how i pass my PRI sch life till i graduated.
SEC sch, unluckly went to de same sch as them.
hax. juz coz they know some Ah LIAN a senior,
this senior is also frm our pri sch.
they tell the senior, i diao them, wishing i would get beaten or warning
but sry, USE SOME BRAIN!
tat senior is MY SISTER'S FREN!
she know me since i'm P1.
we took same sch bus home everyday, play in de bus too(:
so i told the senior, she know me since P1, am i tat type of person?
and i admit tat 2 girls don like me. of coz they can say anytink they wan.
anyway tat senior after tat tell J, this is our own business so she not gonna get invlove.
yes, you can say i'm bitchy too. i laugh at them.
finally one day, T & J quarrel.
T cum 2 me, telling me is not her fault everytink was J who plan.
blablabla~
in de end she told me coz i was to SOFT HEARTED!
means all dis yrs is because of my SOFT HEARTED-NESS they treat me dis way?
Secondary sch i was hoping tat i wouldn hab dis type of frens anymore.
but instead i got USED, my frens say is also bcoz i'm soft-hearted.
i don really know how 2 continue my story..
but i'm no longer tat soft-hearted girl.
my frens used to say i'm those noisy, friendly, active girl.
but now i'm no longer tat type of girl le.
coz i don believe anymore.
i admit i hab family pro too..
alot. since young.
n i'm juz too tired le.
i used to hab a goal in mind, coz i don really like my mum.
i will grow up, believing only myself, be success and earn more money
and be a career women like my mum
NO, STRONGER DEN HER.
my life is very complicated.
i know.
i envy ppl with watever warm family
ppl do change, and will change due to the environment ard them, it does affect them.
i agreed, becoz me too.
i miss the old me.
but i know i can nv change back.
i used to scare of be alone.
now i'm not. i don mind be alone.
perhaps alone means independent bax.
this is reality,
i juz need to get used to it.
juz get used to it can le rite?
juz get used to it..
